And I don't want to spend my time waiting for just another guy

Well, there's another relationship, come and gone. 2 weeks. Can you believe it? Only two weeks for someone to decide that I wasn't good enough for them. Oh well, their loss. Not mine.

My ex sent me a message the other day and said that I'm great and there are
people out there who will appreciate me for me and there's nothing wrong with being myself. Which is the same guy that cheated on me. I don't know if I'd ever get back with him. My family and friends wouldn't be too proud of me because that guy has caused me
so much heartache and he just wasn't good for me. But you'll still always have
feelings for your first lovee. I doubt I really loved him. Once I get older and find a love I know I'm going to look back on these moments and realize that it was all a silly waste if my time. But at the moment, it's what I want to do.

Aaand this other guy who is in my class and only talks to me cause he wants some booty. But he also wants someone to just hang out with. Isn't that what most guys say? But I want my first time to be with someone I'm in a relationship with and that I feel strongly for. Not just some friend with a few benefits. I mean, I would date him in time, and see where it goes but i don't want to mess around when it has absolutely no meaning to it. Maybe I should stop leading him on if I'm not really going to give it to him. That's just mean....but fun...(;

Live your life with arms wide open. Today is where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten.